gue lagi nulis ini bener-bener pikiran gue kacau balau. ya semoga hasilnya gak kaya pikiran gue ya dan bisa di pahami, termasuk sama orang yang terlibat dalam tulisan gue kali ini.
langsung aja kali ya gak usah cerita asal muasal mereka tiba2 muncul. haha
gini , sebenernya ya kalo jujur gue ngerasa terbimbing, lo ngerti apa yang gue omongin,lo dewasa,lebih berpengalaman. itu yg bikin gue tertarik sama lo, tapi gue harap lo ngerti juga ya, cara pandang gue itu masih cetek,belum pantes. sebenernya lo gak salah udah peduli sama gue, gue sangat menghargai itu tapi maaf seribu kali maaf gue gak akan pernah mau untuk Relationship sama lo, bukan karena apa, ya karena gue ngerasa gue masih terlalu kecil,dan mungkin gue pantesnya jadi adik lo. ya gue tau mungkin dengan gue menghindar kaya gini itu semua bakalan nyakitin lo, tapiii gue gak mau kalo gue sama lo udah terlalu deket sama lo dan tiba2 gue ngehilang gitu aja, itu mungkin bikin lo TAMBAH SAKIT HATI!, gue gak mau lo bilang PHP. dan maaf juga selama ini respon sama semua yg pernah lo lakuin ke gue cuma segitu, jujur gue gak sedewasa yang lo pikir, dan satu lagi, gue ngerasa risih dan takut! iya gue tau. tapi , gue harap lo bisa lupain gue, dan lo bakal temuin orang yang jauh lebih baik dari gue. maaf gue harus ambil keputusan ini. SORRY I CAN'T BE YOUR WORLD :)
ini dia yang mau gue tulis, gue seneng aja kalo nulis tentang orang ini di tulisan gue entah kenapa. hahaha gak harus pake alesan yah kayaknya.
ya dia itu mantan gue sampe sekarang gue belom bisa move on dari dia, dan dia tau itu *gubrak*. sebenernya sih ya seneng dia tau kalo gue belom bisa (yaaa yang tadi itulah) *kadang gue suka panas kalo denger kata2 move on itu. apa mungkin gue nya ya yang gak bisa move on, entah lah itu* hihiw
yaa gue berharap suatu saat bisa balik lagi sama dia , ya karna gue nyamannya sama dia gimana dong? haha
gue mungkin bakal ngerubah semua sikap dan kebiasaan buruk gue, dan gue juga mungkin gak akan marah2 lagi kali ya (tergantung). perasaan gue ke dia sampe sekarang masih sama kaya waktu pertama kali pacaran sama dia, ya mungkin orang ada yang tau kalo gue pernah putus, beranten sama dia dan tiba2 balikan.mungkin banyak orang bakal bilang '' sampe segsitunya kalo mau punya pacar?'', kalo emang udah cinta udah susah, segala keburukannya dia juga udah tertutupi! sorry guys itu semua siklus percintaan, kalo gue masalah yang lalu udah gak usah dibawa2 untuk saat ini!
gue yakin mungkin prasaan dia itu ke gue emang gak kayak dulu yakin banget banget!!. yaaa gue cuma mau lo ngerti dan tau , mungkin selama ini lo bertanya-tanya kenapa status ,blog gue semuanya tentang lo. nih gue kasih tau lagi . alasannya itu ada di tulisan ini !
ini lirik lagunya Taylor Swift - If this Was A movie (lagunya seing gue puter sekarang2, bikin inget sama dia)
Last night I heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footsteps on my stairs
Six months gone and I’m still reaching
Even though I know you’re not there
I was playing back a thousand memories, baby
Thinking ’bout everything we’ve been through
Maybe I’ve been going back too much lately
When time stood still and I had you
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside ’till I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you’re sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you’d be here by now
I know people change and these things happen
But I remember how it was back then
Locked up in your arms & our friends are laughing
Cause nothing like this ever happened to them, now
I’m pacing up the hall, chasing down your street
Flashback to a night when you said to me
Nothing’s gonna change, not for me and you
Not before I knew how much I had to lose
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside ’till I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you’re sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you’d be here by now
If you’re out there
If you’re somewhere
If you’re moving on
I’ve been waiting for you
Wary, since you’ve been gone
I just want it back the way it was before
And I just want to see you back at my front door
And I say
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would before you say it’s not that easy
Before the fight, before I left you out
But I take it all back now
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside ’till I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you’re sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you’d be here by now
You’d be here by now
It’s not the kind of ending you wanna see now
Think I’ve had a happy ending
Oh, I thought you’d be here now, whoa
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